Alternate Universe

It's been a while since I last posted. But I haven't had a lot of dreams. 

Last night I had a particularly strange dream. I didn't even remember what my dream was until a few hours after I had been up and moving around.

It started out with James and I going on a date. The date was normal as our usual dates are right up until we were about to go home. We were at one of our doors and he leaned forward and kisses me on the lips. As he pulls away I smile and say, "I love you." His response is a funny look, then a smile, and after that he just walks away. After that I got really upset about it and I cried.

My dream then jumped to the next time I saw James, where I was trying to explain why I said what I said. "I know that freaked you out, but I didn't really mean to say it like that. It's not true. I mean it kind of is true. I do love you, but I'm not in love with you. Like a friend?" Where he then kissed me again and said, "It's okay. We'll move on from here."

We then went on another date, this time we went to see a comedian. When we arrived, I sat at a sort of bar and he went off to do something. The next thing I know a girl Named Brittni sits down next to me. And she starts to talk about how she knows we aren't supposed to talk to each other but she just wanted to say hi and talk to me for a bit. I don't like her so I just kind of look at her and nod. I start to look around for James but he is stuck in a group of friends and can't get away. 

The show starts and James is still stuck across the room. Brittni continues so talk and talk and hug me and lean on my and touch me. The whole time I am just taking it all in and trying to be nice to her. Every time I look over at James he looks annoyed that we are sitting together. At the end of the show she has decided that we are like best friend and hangs on my arm as James walks over. Only instead of looking annoyed he looks really happy looking at us and he comes up and puts his arms around the both of us.

This is when it jumps to me sitting with my grandma in her house. I am surrounded by all of these old toys I used to have when I was a little kid. They are all covered in dirt and most of them are broken apart. 

 But, dad comes home from work early and he wakes me up with the door. Four minutes later I get a text from James. When I text him "I love you" I wondered if he'd say it back.